Texas okay i was still bulimic I wasn't running as much and one day someone asked me if I wanted to try cocaine and I health prouds did in it made me it gave me that feeling that I'm a normal person for a few minutes it's great you know I'm desirable I'm attractive that mirror reflection looks just fine as a matter of fact I remember standing in the bathroom I just tried to cocaine for the first time and I'm sorry if this is very specific but this is my wife yeah this is what it is I'm so I just done it .